Soul Lost

I wander in these thoughts
Alone in the pondering
Of what ifs
Never fully getting
What it all means
What am I to you
If I am a friend
If I am a lover
Why is it me
That you come to
When you are in need
When your emotions are turmoil
Why do you pull me in
Like prey that has been caught
Dragging me through
The life that I don't belong
To a man who is not mine
Who brings me smiles
And Laughter that was long lost
When my heart feels peace
When my lips turn up
The world is clearer
More beautiful
When you look into my eyes
I feel safe
Why in this life
I beg to know
When I am not who
You need me to be
When I feel that it is a lie
What I feel inside
I am not yours
You are not mine
Soul mates of a different time
Lovers and hearts
Of a different life
Worlds apart
But it is twins we are
Why do I suffer
For a change that will never come
A love so true it breaks my heart
How do I breathe
When I can longer breathe
Without you near
How can I see clear
When it is your eyes I see through
Do I feel
When I only feel when you are near
As I near you I melt
In the arms of what is not mine

I yearn for a heart
That is denied
So I drown into this
Swallowing my soul
Into the darkest abyss
Praying to my God
Save me from myself
Save me from what
Drags me under
That will never be
I beg you to release me
Release my heart
So I can go in peace
I beg you with my tears
That run silent
As a midnight stream
That wrap around the peace
That can always be found