Addiction

I walk by it time and time again
Never thinking before this moment
That I would ever hate saying no
That this ever made a dent

I prided myself on strength and will
So many times I had bent
But never, never did I break
Now I cower in its presence

I move from one task to another
Ignoring it calling to me to the brink
Shaking my head, shaking in my hands
As I avoid that drink

Not seeing a problem before
Not feeling myself drowning
Until I had to say no today
And I felt it controlling, calling

I sat in the corner covering my ears
shaking in my hands heart pounding
Trying to deny what is in my face
As that bottle, that drink kept calling

Singing and humming to block the sound
Closing my eyes to the sight
As I cower without strength
Not sure how to win this fight

Some drink to get away
Drowning in sorrow
I drink to stay
So I can try again tomorrow

False bravo, false strength
Cowering in the corner I made
As I fought the battle of myself
Fighting hard for just one more day